Alexander Matthew Adair

1981 - 2006
LocationSwindon
Age25 years
Date of Birth09/03/1981
Date of Death31/05/2006
Visitors26,779 since 19/03/2008
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PLEASE READ ~ 4th July ~ have been trying throughout the day to get on and light candles but it's been taking an age to do one, so apologies to any of my angels if I don't get to light your candle. Have a good evening ~ love Hazel xxx



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Alex was born on the 9 March 1981 and died aged 25. He lived with us after his relationship ended with his long-term girlfriend. He found it hard to deal with as they were together for several years. He then had an accident which resulted in him undergoing major spinal surgery where he had to have titanium rods bolted to his spine. He also broke his left shoulder and endured a lot of pain and distress for two years prior to his death. He went missing on the 31st May 06 after a hospital appointment. We never saw him again. After a massive search, Alex was found dead on the 9th June at a local beauty spot. We were devastated to find out he had taken his own life. We never had the chance to say goodbye properly because the coroner wouldn't allow us to see him. He originally trained as a circus performer and dancer, and he was an amazing juggler. Although he recovered from his surgery he was left with reduced mobility in his shoulder and back which was devastating for him as he could no longer do his acrobatics and juggling. He leaves an older brother Marc, a younger sister Phoebe, his gran and an aunty who lives in the USA. He also loved Snoopy!

Alex was my youngest son, and his death has left a huge pain in my heart that will never be healed. He was a talented, gentle person, with a lovely sense of humour and personality. We still expect him to walk into the room and would give anything to hear the swish of his jeans as he moves about. He is greatly missed - more than he will ever know and I am struggling to come to terms with his death, two years on. My biggest distress comes from thinking about what was going through his mind as he was on his own at the end. We adored him and caring for him was a large part of our daily routine, especially in the last two years of his life. We shared so much of his pain and anguish and tried to make things as easy as possible for him. If only I'd taken him for his appointment - but he was trying to regain his independence so I let him go on his own. He 'phoned his dad twice to have a chat when he was on his way to the hospital - my husband says he was happy and upbeat. Little did we know.

I still cry every day at the thought of never seeing him again and long to hug and kiss him. The pain is unbearable at times. I love you more than you will ever know sweetheart. Alex - my beautiful son, you are forever in my heart - until we meet again, I send you lots of hugs, kisses and peaceful thoughts, Mums xxx




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4TH JULY 2009.

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♥♥♥ GOOD MORNING SWEETHEART.♥♥♥

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♥♥♥ LOVE JUDE.X ♥♥♥

Jude Swaddle (Friend)
Yesterday morning

THIS LITTLE CANDLE

I lit a candle tonight, in honor of you
Remembering your life, and all the times we'd been through.
Such a small little light the candle made
Until I realized how much in darkness it lit the way.
All the tears I've cried in all my grief and pain
What a garden they grew, watered with human rain.
I sometimes can't see beyond the moment, in hopeless despair.
But then your memory sustains me, in heartaches repair.
I can wait for the tomorrow, when my sorrows ease
Until then I'll light this candle, and let my memories run free.


Have a wonderful weekend. All my Love. Happy 4th of July. Love Gloria Anthony's Mom xoxo

Gloria Anthony'S Mom
Friday night

3RD JUNE 2009

•:*:•Well its now time for me to say goodnight•:*:•

•:*:•So sleep well till morning light•:*:•

•:*:•My darling angel, I love you•:*:•

•:*:•And miss you with all my heart too•:*:•

•:*:•Tomorrow is a brand knew day•:*:•

•:*:•And again I will think of you in my special way•:*:•

•:*:•So till the sun shines again tomorrow•:*:•

•:*:•Tonight my angel take away my sorrow•:*:•

•:*:•Goodnight my angel, Sleep tight•:*:•

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Jude Swaddle (Friend)
Friday night

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★ ◦˚◦ ☆ ◦˚◦ ★◦˚◦ ☆ ◦˚◦ ★all my love MARGO XXX

Margo Todd (Close Friend)
Friday afternoon

~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Today ~~~~~~~~~~~~~


Today a feather dropped from the sky
It made me wish that I could fly
Above the clouds way up high
To join my angel in the sky

Today I missed you oh so much
Missed your smile and your gentle touch
I wished that I could turn back time
So once again you'd be mine

Today I wished that I could fly
fly through time to make you mine
Mine just like you used to be
Today I wished you were with me

copyright Ingrid Aspey 2/7/09

Annemarie Smith (Friend)
Friday midday

Those we love remain with us
for love itself lives on,
and cherished memories never fade
because a loved one's gone.
Those we love can never be
more than a thought apart,
far as long as there is memory,
they'll live on in the heart.

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Thank you all so much for your continued support. Sorry i haven`t been on for a while but depression got me and i couldn`t cope . i am feeling alot better now and will be back soon. Thinking of you always love Emma xxxx

Emma Smith (Friend) Friday morning

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TOGETHER MY ANGEL WE SHALL BE,
TOGETHER FOR ALL ETERNITY.
TOGETHER TILL THE STARS THEY FADE.
TOGETHER MY ANGEL UNAFRAID.
TOGETHER MY ANGEL WE HAVE LOVED.
TOGETHER MY ANGEL AND GOD ABOVE.
TOGETHER MY ANGEL WE LOVE UNTIL WE DIE.
TOGETHER WE'LL BE,UP ON HIGH.
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

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FOR SATURDAY.

ALTHOUGH YOU ARE NOW FAR AWAY,
OUR LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER STRAY,
NOW IN GOD'S ARMS YOU SHALL BE
SAFE FROM EARTHS LAND AND SEA,
OUR DARLING WE SHED SO MANY TEARS,
FOR OUR ANGEL HIGH ABOVE.

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FOR SUNDAY.

MY ANGEL I MISS YOU SO MUCH,
I SHED A TEAR,
THERE ARE TIMES I STILL
FEEL YOU NEAR.
I FEEL YOUR HAND UPON MY FACE,
YOUR ARMS AROUND ME IN A
LOVING IN EMBRACE.
AS IF TO TELL ME NOT TO CRY.
YOU'RE WAITING FOR ME UP ON HIGH.
WHEN I DIE,I KNOW I'LL SEE
MY DARLING ANGEL SMILLING AT ME.

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I WISH YOU ALL A LOVELY WEEKEND
FILLED WITH LOVE,PEACE,SUNSHINE AND LAUGHTER.
WITH LOVE AS ALWAYS LINDA.XXX

Linda Hutt (Close Friend)
Friday morning

3RD JUNE 2009

♥ ♰ ♥ ♰ GOOD MORNING SWEETHEART ♥ ♰ ♥ ♰



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Jude Swaddle (Friend)
Friday morning

Tribute For This Weekend

My computer is going very slow at the moment
so tributes will be hit & miss for now,
My Daughter’s Baby is due anytime
I will be at the hospital with her
when she has the Baby busy time ahead
I am so excited, I wish Christopher
was here with us Bless Him

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MY LITTLE GARDEN


I have a little garden
No flowers will you find;
Instead you'll see the friendships
That I have made online.

They grow from something other
Than normal flowers do.
They thrive on love and support
And understanding too.

This special little garden;
No matter rain or shine,
Is always in bloom;
This special place of mine.

It's filled with fun and laughter;
Where happiness abounds.
This lovely garden echoes
Many joyful sound.

I would like for you to know
That you are planted here
In my 'Friendship Garden';
Our hearts are always near.

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Sent Straight From Heaven


You were a gift sent straight from Heaven.
Given to us from God above.
We didn't know how much you would teach us
About the meaning of true love...

For true love sometimes means letting go
Of someone precious and dear.
That is what we were forced to do...
Although we wanted to keep you here!!!

However, this is quite a selfish wish.
One we know we should ignore...
But, we truly do believe
That God must have needed you more...

Perhaps to be an Angel now,
Full of wisdom and love...
Watching over those of us who love you
From the shining stars above.

We miss you more than you can know.
You will never be replaced...
In our hearts and memories forever,
Will be your sweet and innocent sleeping face.

Each time we see your picture
You seem to smile and say,
“Don’t cry, I’m in God’s hands,
We’ll meet again someday!”

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“The Best”

God saw you getting tired
And a cure was not to be.
So He put His arms around you
And He whispered “Come to Me”

With tearful eyes we watched you.
We watched you fade away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.

A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard-working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He chose to take the best.

It’s lonesome here without you
We miss you more each day.
Life doesn’t seem the same
Since you have gone away.

When days are sad and lonely
And everything goes wrong,
We seem to hear you whisper
“Cheer Up and Carry On”

Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela Christopher's Very Proud Mum

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Marie-Angela Rowe (GTS Friend) Friday morning

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ GOODNIGHT ANGEL Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ

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┊ ┊ ┊  ♥ Those we love don't go away
┊ ┊ ♥ They walk beside us every day,
┊  ♥ Unseen, unheard, but always near,
♥ Still loved, still missed and very dear.

With love Always
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Linda xxx

Linda Larkin
Thursday evening
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