Alexander Matthew Adair

1981 - 2006
LocationSwindon
Age25 years
Date of Birth09/03/1981
Date of Death31/05/2006
Visitors36,967 since 19/03/2008
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Alex was born on the 9 March 1981 and died aged 25. He lived with us after his relationship ended
with his long-term girlfriend. He found it hard to deal with as they were together for several
years. He then had an accident which resulted in him undergoing major spinal surgery where he had
to have titanium rods bolted to his spine. He also broke his left shoulder and endured a lot of pain
and distress for two years prior to his death. He went missing on the 31st May 06 after a hospital
appointment. We never saw him again. After a massive search, Alex was found dead on the 9th June at
a local beauty spot. We were devastated to find out he had taken his own life. We never had the
chance to say goodbye properly because the coroner wouldn't allow us to see him. He originally
trained as a circus performer and dancer, and he was an amazing juggler. Although he recovered from
his surgery he was left with reduced mobility in his shoulder and back which was devastating for him
as he could no longer do his acrobatics and juggling. He leaves an older brother Marc, a younger
sister Phoebe, his gran and an aunty who lives in the USA. He also loved Snoopy!

Alex was my youngest son, and his death has left a huge pain in my heart that will never be healed.
He was a very talented, gentle person, with a lovely sense of humour and sparkling personality. I am
very proud that he is my son and I have the greatest respect for his courage and tenacity.
Thankfully we are blessed with lots of lovely memories of happier times. We still expect him to walk
into the room and would give anything to hear the swish of his jeans as he moves about or the thud
of clubs and juggling balls landing on the floor. He is greatly missed - more than he will ever know
and I am struggling to come to terms with his death, three years on.

My biggest distress comes from thinking about what was going through his mind as he was on his own
at the end. My husband and I adored him and caring for him was a large part of our daily routine,
especially in the last two years of his life. We shared so much of his pain and anguish and tried to
make things as easy as possible for him. If only I'd taken him for his appointment - but he was
trying to regain his independence so I let him go on his own. He 'phoned his dad twice to have a
chat when he was on his way to the hospital - my husband says he was happy and upbeat. The
consultant he saw also said the same. Little did we know.

I still cry every day at the thought of never seeing him again and long to hug and kiss him. The
pain is unbearable at times. I love you more than you will ever know sweetheart. Alex - my beautiful
son, you will remain forever in my heart - until we meet again, I send you lots of hugs, kisses and
peaceful thoughts and hope that you are happy wherever you are ~ love Mums xxx




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How fading are the joys we dote upon!
Like apparitions seen and gone.
But those that soonest take their flight
Are the most exquisite and strong-
Like angels' visits, short and bright;
Mortality's too weak to bear them long.

(John Norris)

Dana Sister Of Mar'Yan Petriv Wednesday evening

for Alex and Hazel x

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"We are healed from suffering only by experiencing it to the full".

Marcel Proust

with love Jane xxx

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Jane Jess' Mum X (Friend) Wednesday evening

TRIBUTE FOR THURSDAY 5.11.09
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The size of sadness
Can you measure our pain?
It reaches the stars and back again
Can you count our tears?
They are as many as winter rain
Can you weigh our emptiness?
The world and more would come to less
With no hope of sun tomorrow
That's how we see our sorrow
Add all together -The size of sadness


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TRIBUTE FOR FRIDAY 6.11.09.

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Having you not with me
Hurts more and more each day
Although I feel a closeness
In a very special way
Even as I go to sleep
Every thought is of you
And I never thought i'd miss you
In quite the way I do
So i'm hoping that these words
May some how let you know
That you're in my heart forever
And i'll always love you so
The one and only thing
That helps me with the pain
Is dreaming of the time
When I will see you once again...

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TRIBUTE FOR SATURDAY 07.1109
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My love is with you
Oh What can I say?
My heart is empty without you each and every day.
The Angel wings you wear must be so grand,
if only I could reach out and touch your hand,
maybe then we could say goodbye,
which would help dry the tears that I cry
Now I know that’s impossible for us to do,
so let’s make a deal just you and me.
When I look to the stars at night,
you look for me with all your might,
when you see me just shine real bright,
together we can send our love
and say Good Night.

I would like to wish you all a very good weekend and God Bless all our Angels and all our BRAVE HERO'S who have Lost Their Lives.
With love as always Linda.xxx

Linda Hutt (Close Friend) Wednesday afternoon

4th November 2009



✝ • ♥ • ✞ Just Like a rainbow, ✝ • ♥ • ✞

Fading in the twinkling of an eye………

✝ • ♥ • ✞ Gone Too Soon . ✝ • ♥ • ✞

Jude Swaddle (Friend) Wednesday afternoon

Nite God blessxxxx

Light A Candle
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light a candle,
see it glow,
watch it dance,
when you feel low,
think of me,
think of light,
I'll always be here,
day or night,
a candle flickers,
out of sight,
but in your heart,
I still burn bright,
think not of sadness,
that I'm not near,
think of gladness,
and joyous cheer,
I have not left,
I am not gone,
I'm here to stay
my little one,
so when you light a candle
and you see it glow
and you watch it dance
in your heart you'll know
that I would never leave you
even when you feel so blue
I'm sitting up here with the Lord
and now watching over you
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Belinda Williams (Close Friend) Tuesday night

NITE NITE SWEETHEART.XXX

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JUST DROPPED IN TO SAY GOOD NITE SO SNUGGLE UP NICE AND WARM FOR THE NITE.
NITE NITE
SWEET DREAMS
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LOVE ALWAYS GILLIAN XXXXXX

Gillian Stephen Moores Mam (Friend) Tuesday evening

for Alex and Hazel ~xxx~

☆ .•* ☆ *•.☆ love and (((hugs)))☆ .•* ☆ *•.☆ xxx

Jane Jess' Mum X (Friend) Tuesday afternoon

3rd November 2009




GOOD MORNING SWEET ANGEL .............

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There's no fairy godmother
To make my wish come true,
No genie in a bottle to bring me to you.

No prayer on a fallen star
No magic potion in a jar,
But I can dream and when I do,
I dream that I'm there with you.

A little prayer,a little tear,
A silent wish that you were here.
Tears in my eyes I can wipe away,
But the ache in my heart will always stay.

Love Jude. x x


Jude Swaddle (Friend) Tuesday morning

Thoughts of Alex

My thoughts are free to go anywhere, but it's surprising how often they head in your direction.
You are the sun in my day, the wind in my sky, the waves in my ocean and the beat in my heart... Thinking of you!
Maybe if you can't get somebody out of your head, they're supposed to be there.
You have a special place in my heart... Thinking of You
You may be not here with us... but you are never out of our minds, we always think of you.
A day without you is like a day without sunshine... Thinking of You!
I think of you, as I think of taking a breathe..
Love always - Wendy xoxo

Wendy Callister (Aunt) Tuesday morning

For Alex

Alex, when I think about rain, I think about singing. When I think about singing, it's a heavenly tune. When I think about heaven then I think about angels. When I think about angels, I think about you. No matter what the question is, love and mis you is always the answer! It's written on angels' wings. We will always love you Alex xoxo

Wendy Callister (Aunt) Tuesday morning
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