Alexander Matthew Adair

1981 - 2006
LocationSwindon
Age25 years
Date of Birth09/03/1981
Date of Death31/05/2006
Visitors36,967 since 19/03/2008
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Alex was born on the 9 March 1981 and died aged 25. He lived with us after his relationship ended
with his long-term girlfriend. He found it hard to deal with as they were together for several
years. He then had an accident which resulted in him undergoing major spinal surgery where he had
to have titanium rods bolted to his spine. He also broke his left shoulder and endured a lot of pain
and distress for two years prior to his death. He went missing on the 31st May 06 after a hospital
appointment. We never saw him again. After a massive search, Alex was found dead on the 9th June at
a local beauty spot. We were devastated to find out he had taken his own life. We never had the
chance to say goodbye properly because the coroner wouldn't allow us to see him. He originally
trained as a circus performer and dancer, and he was an amazing juggler. Although he recovered from
his surgery he was left with reduced mobility in his shoulder and back which was devastating for him
as he could no longer do his acrobatics and juggling. He leaves an older brother Marc, a younger
sister Phoebe, his gran and an aunty who lives in the USA. He also loved Snoopy!

Alex was my youngest son, and his death has left a huge pain in my heart that will never be healed.
He was a very talented, gentle person, with a lovely sense of humour and sparkling personality. I am
very proud that he is my son and I have the greatest respect for his courage and tenacity.
Thankfully we are blessed with lots of lovely memories of happier times. We still expect him to walk
into the room and would give anything to hear the swish of his jeans as he moves about or the thud
of clubs and juggling balls landing on the floor. He is greatly missed - more than he will ever know
and I am struggling to come to terms with his death, three years on.

My biggest distress comes from thinking about what was going through his mind as he was on his own
at the end. My husband and I adored him and caring for him was a large part of our daily routine,
especially in the last two years of his life. We shared so much of his pain and anguish and tried to
make things as easy as possible for him. If only I'd taken him for his appointment - but he was
trying to regain his independence so I let him go on his own. He 'phoned his dad twice to have a
chat when he was on his way to the hospital - my husband says he was happy and upbeat. The
consultant he saw also said the same. Little did we know.

I still cry every day at the thought of never seeing him again and long to hug and kiss him. The
pain is unbearable at times. I love you more than you will ever know sweetheart. Alex - my beautiful
son, you will remain forever in my heart - until we meet again, I send you lots of hugs, kisses and
peaceful thoughts and hope that you are happy wherever you are ~ love Mums xxx




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On angel wings you do fly
On angel wings into the sky
On angel wings i do cry
Because those angel wings took you away
On angel wings the heralds sing
Is there no such lovely thing?
On angel wings you fly away.
I will see these angel wings again someday
When i am old and my time has come
On angel wings I will fly
Until I'm holding you once again
Smiling on angel wings.
xx

Annemarie X (Close Friend) 5 days ago

HANDS OF HOPE

Hands Of Hope
by John Leroy Maxwell

We live in a world, where uncertainty reigns in almost everyone's life.
Everyday plans that used to be sure, are now filled with doubt and strife.
Some people go on with their lives, with an attitude hard and bold.
So many others seek comfort and hope, and need a strong hand to hold.
We're apt to wander aimlessly, when there is no one to guide.
If you see your fellow man, traveling in this world so wide.
Open your hands of compassion, and spread new seeds of pride.
So release the light of all that is good.
Let it filter thru the lands.
Let others know that what they feel, comes lovingly from Open Hands. xxx

Charlotte Chris Mallins Mum (Close Friend) 5 days ago

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ღ♥ღ Our angel in the sky

ღ♥ღ Our thoughts are always with you
ღ♥ღ Our angel in the sky
ღ♥ღ We love you
ღ♥ღ And always miss you
ღ♥ღ And many a day we cry.

ღ♥ღ You are some one special
ღ♥ღ our angel in the sky
ღ♥ღ why did god have to take you
ღ♥ღ how many days we ask why.?

ღ♥ღ There maybe distance between us
ღ♥ღ The distance may be far
ღ♥ღ But distance can never take
ღ♥ღ The feelings we have inside.

ღ♥ღ Oh our sweet Angel
ღ♥ღ We look for you in the sky
ღ♥ღ Hoping we could just see you
ღ♥ღ And wishing that you are nearby.

ღ♥ღ We cherish all the memories
ღ♥ღ Of you our sweet angel
ღ♥ღ Now living in the sky.

copyright ~ Jo Dalton 2009

Lots of Love Sharon & Angel Stacey xxx

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Sharon Adopted Sister Of Tracey (Friend) 5 days ago

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"Not Forgotten"



People think we have forgotten
When at times they see us smile
Little do they know the heartache
That our smiles hide all the while
To some you may be forgotten
To others a part of the past
But to those who loved and lost you
Your memory will last and last

Dawn Walker 5 days ago

for Alex and Hazel, with love x

Time is too slow for those who wait,
Too swift for those who fear,
Too long for those who grieve,
Too short for those who rejoice,
But for those who love, time is
Eternity.

Henry Van Dyke (1852 - 1933 )

♥ `*•. ♥* ( he did well!)
xxx

Jane Jess' Mum X (Friend) 6 days ago

~With Love ~

Goodnight special Angel

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Goodnight and sweet dreams..
Special Angel above
I'm saying Goodnight..
And sending you love

I'm blowing you kisses..
And they are full of love
Just for you..
Special Angel above


copyright Jackie Thomas 22/07/09.



Goodnight Alex ...God bless x x

Fiona Ogden (GTS Friend) 6 days ago

I am sure, Alex, I posted this song for you and your mum before, but I think it is so lovely that you would not mind me leaving it again. With love, always xxx

"To Where You Are"

Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory, so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be (?)
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are my
Forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away not far
To where you are

I know you're there
A breath away not far
To where you are

For our angels with love xxxx

Thank you for the
years we shared
The love you gave
The way you cared.

Tha gates of memories
never close,
We miss you more
than anyone knows.

A million words
could never express
my love, my sorrow
my empitiness.

But deep in my heart
Your memory is kept
I love you too dearly
too ever forget.


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Missing our angels xxxxxxx

Cindy Richard Ashbrooks Mum (Best Friend) 6 days ago

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Tributes For Week Starting 2nd November

FOR MONDAY

There's a special kind of feeling,
That's meant for you alone,
A special place within our hearts,
That only you can own.

FOR TUESDAY

If only prayers were answered,
& wishes did come true,
Our only wishes with all our hearts,
Would be to still have you

FOR WEDNESDAY

We send this special message
To the heavens up above
Please take care of our precious angels
And give them all our love


FOR THURSDAY

I lit a candle for you today
May it's light reflect my love your way
Now I must go until next time
I will forever keep you, gently on my mind


FOR FRIDAY

Angels

When you were born, an angel smiled,
As you became a child, an angel sat on your shoulder
When you became an adult, an angel held your hand
As you grew old, an angel walked down the road with you,
And, when you died, another angel got their wings.


FOR SATURDAY

Letter From Heaven


To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said,
"I welcome you."

It's good to have you back again; you were missed
While you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.

And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
Remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.


FOR SUNDAY

Reply to "Letter from Heaven"

My Dearest Loved one:

I received your Letter from Heaven,
It made the teardrops fall.
But knowing you’re with God above,
Sweet memories, I will recall.

I know that you are with me,
For I feel your presence near.
And if I listen closely,
Your voice I then can hear.

I know you’re watching o’er me,
As you promised you would do.
And when I feel so saddened,
It’s your letter that sees me through.

When I lay in bed at night,
The day’s chores put to flight,
I truly feel your presence,
Like a warm and glowing light.

The rocky roads you mentioned,
And the hills that I must climb;
I’ve done exactly what you said,
By taking one day at a time.

I’ve tried to help others,
Who are in sorrow and in pain.
And now I am contented,
My day was not in vain.

I’ll lend a hand, as you have said
When someone is feeling low.
I’ll pray for them and be here,
‘Till on their way they go.

And when it’s time for me to go,
To join you in heaven high.
My wings I shall spread wide,
To my home up in the sky.


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Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher's Very Proud Mum

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Marie-Angela Rowe (Close Friend) 6 days ago

♥ `*•. 1st NOVEMBER 2009 ♥ `*•.
Memories are roses
blooming ever more
full of fragrant sweetness
never known before
life must have a meaning
goals for which to strive
memories are lights that burn
to keep the heart alive

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HAVE A LOVELY SUNDAY FRIEND

Jan Maddison (GTS Friend) 6 days ago
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