Alexander Matthew Adair

1981 - 2006
LocationSwindon
Age25 years
Date of Birth09/03/1981
Date of Death31/05/2006
Visitors38,189 since 19/03/2008
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Please read ~ I have been having internet connection problems for the last couple of days so forgive
me if I don't get to light all my candles ~ love to you all ~ Hazel xxxx


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candles, tributes and gifts left on Alex's site, it is very much appreciated - bless you all.
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Alex was born on the 9 March 1981 and died aged 25. He lived with us after his relationship ended
with his long-term girlfriend. He found it hard to deal with as they were together for several
years. He then had an accident which resulted in him undergoing major spinal surgery where he had
to have titanium rods bolted to his spine. He also broke his left shoulder and endured a lot of pain
and distress for two years prior to his death. He went missing on the 31st May 06 after a hospital
appointment. We never saw him again. After a massive search, Alex was found dead on the 9th June at
a local beauty spot. We were devastated to find out he had taken his own life. We never had the
chance to say goodbye properly because the coroner wouldn't allow us to see him. He originally
trained as a circus performer and dancer, and he was an amazing juggler. Although he recovered from
his surgery he was left with reduced mobility in his shoulder and back which was devastating for him
as he could no longer do his acrobatics and juggling. He leaves an older brother Marc, a younger
sister Phoebe, his gran and an aunty who lives in the USA. He also loved Snoopy!

Alex was my youngest son, and his death has left a huge pain in my heart that will never be healed.
He was a very talented, gentle person, with a lovely sense of humour and sparkling personality. I am
very proud that he is my son and I have the greatest respect for his courage and tenacity.
Thankfully we are blessed with lots of lovely memories of happier times. We still expect him to walk
into the room and would give anything to hear the swish of his jeans as he moves about or the thud
of clubs and juggling balls landing on the floor. He is greatly missed - more than he will ever know
and I am struggling to come to terms with his death, three years on.

My biggest distress comes from thinking about what was going through his mind as he was on his own
at the end. My husband and I adored him and caring for him was a large part of our daily routine,
especially in the last two years of his life. We shared so much of his pain and anguish and tried to
make things as easy as possible for him. If only I'd taken him for his appointment - but he was
trying to regain his independence so I let him go on his own. He 'phoned his dad twice to have a
chat when he was on his way to the hospital - my husband says he was happy and upbeat. The
consultant he saw also said the same. Little did we know.

I still cry every day at the thought of never seeing him again and long to hug and kiss him. The
pain is unbearable at times. I love you more than you will ever know sweetheart. Alex - my beautiful
son, you will remain forever in my heart - until we meet again, I send you lots of hugs, kisses and
peaceful thoughts and hope that you are happy wherever you are ~ love Mums xxx




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GOODNIGHT, GOD BLESS LOVE CATHY XX

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Cathy Kerr Mum Of Graham (Best Friend) 5 days ago



17TH NOVEMBER 2009

(✣) My Angel (✣)

(✣)My Angels halo shines with love
My Angel is in Gods arms above
My Angel is so beautiful you see..
My Angel watches down on me (✣)

(✣) (✣) (✣) (✣) (✣) (✣) (✣) (✣)

(✣)Sweet dreams precious Angel
Just you snuggle up tight
And rest your wings 'til morning light
Watch over all your family with love..
Beautiful Angel....
In Gods kingdom above (✣)

Love Jude. x x



copyright ~ Jackie Thomas 10/11/09

Jude Swaddle (Friend) 5 days ago

To My Special Angels
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Do you think?.............

Do you think that I am over it
Better than before
Maybe I've forgotten
Doesn't hurt me anymore?

Do you think that I am doing fine
No tears are shed each day
Get up and just get going
Pain has all but gone away?

Do you think that I am coping
Living life just as you do
If that's what you imagine...
You don't have a single clue.

I cope, I cry, and I deny
I've learned how I must hide
Keep everything within me
Bottled up deep down inside.

I can't be who I was before
I've changed I'm someone new
It happens when you have a loss
You would be different too.

I'm so misunderstood each day
To tired to explain
Not over it, or better
Simply put... I'm not the same.

And will never be because you left me.

╚══♥ xxx ♥═══♥

♥═══♥ LOVE SHARON. X ♥═══♥

(Author Unknown)
★ I picked a star to wish upon,from all the stars above,I closed my eyes and made a wish,to send you lots of love.★

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It doesn't take a special day
To bring you to my mind
Every day is special to me
You were one of a kind.

I think of you often
Mostly at the night
Where dreams help to soften
A love that felt so right.

I know you'l always be with me
Right till the very end
Until the day we meet again
My heart will never mend.

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(Jayne Roddy)

To You And Your Angel All My Love Sharon & Angel Stacey xxx

Sharon Adopted Sister Of Tracey (Friend) 5 days ago

words of Charles Dickens (1812-1870)

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"And can it be that in a world so full and busy, the loss of one person makes a void so wide and deep that nothing but the width and depth of Eternity can fill it up."

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love Jane ~xxx~

Jane Jess' Mum X (Close Friend) 5 days ago

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Love,
Phyllis and Lil Benjamin

Phyllis Frazier Harris (Friend) 6 days ago

If Your Knew
If you knew where I am standing
If you could see the sights I see
If you could hear the angels singing
The songs they sing eternally
If you knew the One I'm holding
Could see the smile He smiles at me
If you knew where I am resting
You would not cry for me

I'm resting in the arms of Jesus
No other place would I rather be
So if you shed a tear
Please don't shed it for me
For if you knew where I am resting
You would not cry for me

(by Steven Kinworthy)

Cathy Kerr Mum Of Graham (Best Friend) 6 days ago

for Alex and Hazel, with fond love xxx

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"It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, (protecting it's sanity), covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone."

Author unknown


love Jane xxx

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Jane Jess' Mum X (Close Friend) 6 days ago

♥ May the winds of love ♥
♥ blow softly and whisper ♥
♥ in your ear how much ♥
♥ we love and miss you ♥
♥ and wish that you were here♥
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GOODNIGHT, GOD BLESS

LOVE ALWAYS LINDA XXX

Linda Daughter Of Norrie (Friend) 6 days ago

xxx Hazel xxx

~♥~ Our Guardian Angels will speak to us
in many different ways ~♥~

~♥~ They'll whisper joy from a bird's song
or wind through a majestic pine ~♥~

~♥~ Or laugh amid the rolling clouds
in a joyous thunder clap ~♥~

~♥~ Or whisper love through a turtle dove
or from a puppy's joyous yap ~♥~

~♥~ So listen closely to every sound
that might come your way ~♥~

~♥~ It could be your angel saying,
"Have a Wonderful Day." ~♥~

~By Shannon L. Story~

With love
Jill
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Jill Ben'S Mum Xx (Best Friend) 6 days ago

I NEVER SAW YOUR WINGS

How is it that I never saw your wings
when you were here with me?
When you closed your eyes and soared
to the Heavens I could hear the
faint flutter of you wings as you left.
Your body no longer on this side
your spirit here eternally I see your halo shine.
I close my eyes and see the multicolored wings
surround me in my saddest moments and my happiest times.
Son my angel God has given you your assignment
always my son forever my angel.
You fly into my dreams and when I am asleep
I feel your wings brush against my face wiping away
the tears I shed since I can no longer hold
you in my arms but in my heart.
You earned those wings dear son
and you will always be me angel eternal.
by Michele


SORRY FOR THE LACK OF CANDLES LAST FEW DAYS. LOTS HAVE HAPPEN, MY SON CHRISTOPHER 16 WAS IN A CAR ACCIDENT. THANK GOD THAT HE'S OK. HE WAS ON HIS WAS TO FOOTBALL PRACTICE AND FELL ASLEEP DRIVING. I KNOW ANTHONY AND HIS GRANDFATHER MUST OF BEEN WATCHING OVER HIM. THANK GOD HE'S OK. ALSO BEEN WORKING ON MY HOUSE. IT MY HUSBANDS GLEN'S BIRTHDAY ON THE 26TH AND TRYING TO MAKE IT SPECIAL FOR HIM. SO SENDING YOU EXTRA LOVE AND (((HUGS))). ALL MY LOVE GLORIA ANTHONY'S MOM XOXO

Gloria Anthony'S Mom (Close Friend) 6 days ago
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