Alexander Matthew Adair

1981 - 2006
LocationSwindon
Age25 years
Date of Birth09/03/1981
Date of Death31/05/2006
Visitors36,967 since 19/03/2008
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Alex was born on the 9 March 1981 and died aged 25. He lived with us after his relationship ended
with his long-term girlfriend. He found it hard to deal with as they were together for several
years. He then had an accident which resulted in him undergoing major spinal surgery where he had
to have titanium rods bolted to his spine. He also broke his left shoulder and endured a lot of pain
and distress for two years prior to his death. He went missing on the 31st May 06 after a hospital
appointment. We never saw him again. After a massive search, Alex was found dead on the 9th June at
a local beauty spot. We were devastated to find out he had taken his own life. We never had the
chance to say goodbye properly because the coroner wouldn't allow us to see him. He originally
trained as a circus performer and dancer, and he was an amazing juggler. Although he recovered from
his surgery he was left with reduced mobility in his shoulder and back which was devastating for him
as he could no longer do his acrobatics and juggling. He leaves an older brother Marc, a younger
sister Phoebe, his gran and an aunty who lives in the USA. He also loved Snoopy!

Alex was my youngest son, and his death has left a huge pain in my heart that will never be healed.
He was a very talented, gentle person, with a lovely sense of humour and sparkling personality. I am
very proud that he is my son and I have the greatest respect for his courage and tenacity.
Thankfully we are blessed with lots of lovely memories of happier times. We still expect him to walk
into the room and would give anything to hear the swish of his jeans as he moves about or the thud
of clubs and juggling balls landing on the floor. He is greatly missed - more than he will ever know
and I am struggling to come to terms with his death, three years on.

My biggest distress comes from thinking about what was going through his mind as he was on his own
at the end. My husband and I adored him and caring for him was a large part of our daily routine,
especially in the last two years of his life. We shared so much of his pain and anguish and tried to
make things as easy as possible for him. If only I'd taken him for his appointment - but he was
trying to regain his independence so I let him go on his own. He 'phoned his dad twice to have a
chat when he was on his way to the hospital - my husband says he was happy and upbeat. The
consultant he saw also said the same. Little did we know.

I still cry every day at the thought of never seeing him again and long to hug and kiss him. The
pain is unbearable at times. I love you more than you will ever know sweetheart. Alex - my beautiful
son, you will remain forever in my heart - until we meet again, I send you lots of hugs, kisses and
peaceful thoughts and hope that you are happy wherever you are ~ love Mums xxx




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♥ without sand
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♥ without a hand
♥ Imagine a butterfly
♥ without wings
♥ Imagine winter without
♥ the promise of spring
♥ Imagine night without
♥ the arrival of dawn
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♥ being just a pawn
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♥ that never connects
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♥ that always rejects
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♥ do not see
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♥ it can never be...
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♥ does not feel
♥ Imagine a heart
♥ made out of steel
♥ Imagine a body
♥ that does not yield
♥ Imagine life’s storms
♥ without a human shield
♥ Imagine a tear
♥ that never cries
♥ Imagine an ache
♥ that never dies
♥ Impossible to imagine….
♥ It’s life without you!

♥ Copyright? Mary Thong-Garner ♥

Jan Maddison (GTS Friend) 1 week ago

HAPPY HALLOWEEN ALEXANDER

31ST OCTOBER 2009
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LOVE THERESA X

Theresa Tutt 1 week ago

The vaulted void of purple sky
That everywhere extends,
That stretches from the dazzled eye,
In space that never ends;
A morning whose uprisen sun
No setting e'er shall see;
A day that comes without a noon
Such is eternity.
- John Clare

Love and God Bless.

Gail Danny'S Mum (Close Friend) 1 week ago

As god saw you getting tired ,A cure was not found, so he put his arms around youand whisppered come with me with broken hearts . we loved you as we had heared you passed away although we loved you deeply .we had could not make you stay your golden heart stop beating god brokeour hearts to prove to us that he only takes the best

Sharon Clarke (Friend) 1 week ago




☆31ST OCTOBER 2009☆



☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ HAPPY HALLOWEEN 2009 ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆




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♥ ♰ ♥ A SMILE CAN HIDE THE SADNESS ♥ ♰ ♥ A TEAR CAN BE WIPED AWAY ♥ ♰ ♥ BUT THE HEARTACHE OF LOSING YOU ♥ ♰ ♥ WILL NEVER GO AWAY ♥ ♰ ♥


LOVE JUDE. XX

Jude Swaddle (Friend) 1 week ago

Death Is Nothing At All

Death is nothing at all,
I have only slipped away
into the next room.

I am I,
and you are you;
whatever we were to each other,
that, we still are.

Call me by my old familiar name,
speak to me in the easy way
which you always used,
put no difference in your tone,
wear no forced air
of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we shared together.
Let my name ever be
the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect,
without the trace of a shadow on it.

Life means all
that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is unbroken continuity.

Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?

I am waiting for you,
for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just around the corner.

All is well.


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Henry Scott Holland
1847 -1918

Carol Boswell (Best Friend) 1 week ago

♥ `*•.¸ 30th October 2009 ♥ `*•.¸

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Jan Maddison (GTS Friend) 1 week ago

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You can shed tears that he is gone
or you can smile
because he has lived

You can close your eyes
and wish that he'll come back
or you can open your eyes
and see all he's left

You can remember him
and only that he's gone
or you can cherish his memory
and let it live on

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love margo xx

Margo Todd (Close Friend) 1 week ago

☀ Good night to a special angel
☀ That we think of every day
☀ One that we wished never went away

☀ Our tears they come
☀ As we dream of you each day
☀ We love our angel
☀ And wish that you was never taken away

☀ You’re in our hearts day and night
☀ How we wish you was here in our sight

☀ Deep in our heart our angels will stay
☀ Loved and longed for everyday

☀ We love you and miss you more
☀ And one day God will make that call
☀ And when he does
☀ Our sweet angel up above
☀ We will show you all our love

☀ Goodnight sweet angel sleep tight

Copyright� Jo Dalton 2009

Jan Maddison (GTS Friend) 1 week ago

with love to Hazel x

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Like the shade of a great tree in the noonday heat is a friend.
Like the home port with your country's flag flying after a long journey is a friend.
A friend is an impregnable citadel of refuge in the strife of existence.

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Anon

Jane Jess' Mum X (Friend) 1 week ago
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