| Location | Swindon |
| Age | 25 years |
| Date of Birth | 09/03/1981 |
| Date of Death | 31/05/2006 |
| Visitors | 38,189 since 19/03/2008 |
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Please read ~ I have been having internet connection problems for the last couple of days so forgive
me if I don't get to light all my candles ~ love to you all ~ Hazel xxxx
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candles, tributes and gifts left on Alex's site, it is very much appreciated - bless you all.
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Alex was born on the 9 March 1981 and died aged 25. He lived with us after his relationship ended
with his long-term girlfriend. He found it hard to deal with as they were together for several
years. He then had an accident which resulted in him undergoing major spinal surgery where he had
to have titanium rods bolted to his spine. He also broke his left shoulder and endured a lot of pain
and distress for two years prior to his death. He went missing on the 31st May 06 after a hospital
appointment. We never saw him again. After a massive search, Alex was found dead on the 9th June at
a local beauty spot. We were devastated to find out he had taken his own life. We never had the
chance to say goodbye properly because the coroner wouldn't allow us to see him. He originally
trained as a circus performer and dancer, and he was an amazing juggler. Although he recovered from
his surgery he was left with reduced mobility in his shoulder and back which was devastating for him
as he could no longer do his acrobatics and juggling. He leaves an older brother Marc, a younger
sister Phoebe, his gran and an aunty who lives in the USA. He also loved Snoopy!
Alex was my youngest son, and his death has left a huge pain in my heart that will never be healed.
He was a very talented, gentle person, with a lovely sense of humour and sparkling personality. I am
very proud that he is my son and I have the greatest respect for his courage and tenacity.
Thankfully we are blessed with lots of lovely memories of happier times. We still expect him to walk
into the room and would give anything to hear the swish of his jeans as he moves about or the thud
of clubs and juggling balls landing on the floor. He is greatly missed - more than he will ever know
and I am struggling to come to terms with his death, three years on.
My biggest distress comes from thinking about what was going through his mind as he was on his own
at the end. My husband and I adored him and caring for him was a large part of our daily routine,
especially in the last two years of his life. We shared so much of his pain and anguish and tried to
make things as easy as possible for him. If only I'd taken him for his appointment - but he was
trying to regain his independence so I let him go on his own. He 'phoned his dad twice to have a
chat when he was on his way to the hospital - my husband says he was happy and upbeat. The
consultant he saw also said the same. Little did we know.
I still cry every day at the thought of never seeing him again and long to hug and kiss him. The
pain is unbearable at times. I love you more than you will ever know sweetheart. Alex - my beautiful
son, you will remain forever in my heart - until we meet again, I send you lots of hugs, kisses and
peaceful thoughts and hope that you are happy wherever you are ~ love Mums xxx
TO A VERY SPECIAL ANGEL WITH LOVE XX
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DONT CRY FOR ME
~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~
Dont cry for me
i am always hear,
I'm right beside you
i am very near.
~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~
Dont cry for me
for i am happy here,
There is no hate
no hurt and no fear.
~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~
Dont cry for me
for i would never leave,
Just think of me
and just believe.
~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~
Dont cry for me
just live your life,
I'll help you always
through troubles and strife.
~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~
Dont cry for me
just look back and say,
We loved and laughed
and then i went on my way
~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~
Dont cry for me
for i have'nt gone,
I'm right in your heart
and life will go on.
~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~
Written by Margaret Pilkington
~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~
Lots Of Love Sharon xxx
What Would I Give
What would I give to hear my child
say I love you Mum once more?
What would I give to see my child
come walking through my door?
What would I give to never have had
to feel the loss and pain?
What would I give to have him back
back in my arms again?
Like any other Mother who has lost a child
There's one thing that I know
We'd have given our own lives gladly
If it meant they hadn't to go
Copyright© Ingrid Aspey 16/11/09
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Precious Love
The agony is so great...
and yet I will stand it.
Had I not loved so very much...
I would not hurt so much.
But God knows I would not want to diminish
that precious love...
By one fraction of an ounce.
I will hurt...
And I will be grateful for that hurt
For it bears witness to the depth of my love.
And for that I will be eternally grateful.
for Alex and Hazel, with love xxx
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"Say not in grief he is no more, but live in thankfulness that he was".
with love Jane xxx
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Tributes For Week Starting 16th November
FOR MONDAY
Sadly missed along life's way,
Quietly remembered every day,
No longer in our life to share,
But in our hearts you’re always there.
FOR TUESDAY
I sit and wonder every day,
Why the Lord chose to call you away,
I think He saw you needed rest,
He only takes the very best.
FOR WEDNESDAY
Everyday in some small way,
Memories of you come our way,
Though absent, you are always near,
Still missed, loved, always dear.
FOR THURSDAY
Resting where no shadows fall,
In peaceful sleep he awaits us all;
God will link the broken chain,
When one by one we meet again.
FOR FRIDAY
Surrounded by friends
Yet all alone
The one I loved
God has called home
The hugs of friends
Helps ease the pain
And I know my loss
Is my loved one's gain
But tears now flow
Across my face
As I long for just
One more embrace
Then comfort comes
And I see Christ's face
He hugs my loved one
And I feel God's grace.
FOR SATURDAY
Please don't sing sad songs for me,
Forget your grief and fears,
For I am in a perfect place
Away from pain and tears...
It's far away from hunger
And hurt and want and pride,
I have a place in Heaven
With the Master at my side.
My life on earth was very good,
As earthly life can go,
But Paradise is so much more
Than anyone can know..
.
My heart is filled with happiness
And sweet rejoicing, too.
To walk with God is perfect peace,
A joy forever new.
FOR SUNDAY
When I come to the end of the day
And the sun has set for me,
I want no rites in a gloom-filled room
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little, but not too long
And not with your head bowed low.
Remember the love we once shared,
Miss me but let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take
And each must go alone.
It's all a part of the maker's plan,
A step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick at heart,
Go to the friends we know,
And bury your sorrows in doing good deeds -
Miss me, but let me go.
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Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
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The Precious Child I Knew
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A child is such a wonderous gift
And I thank the Lord for you
For knowing such a special child
For the love and joy we knew
Although your'e no longer with me
Precious memories live on in my heart
And in my mind it is clear
That one day we won't be apart
I know we'll be together again
When my time on earth is through
Until then I'll hold a memory close
Of the precious child I knew
Copyright© Ingrid Aspey 15/11/09
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♥ 15TH NOVEMBER 2009 ♥
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It's Sunday again and the days pass so fast,
But my love for you will always last.
The days go by in such a blur,
Oh I wish that you were here.
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Days turn into months..
Months turn into years..
I still love you with all my heart..
And only wish we never had to part.
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It's Sunday again and there is not a sound,
Theres not even many people walking around.
For Sunday you see is a day of rest..
You should know my angel..
Because you are the best.
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So my darling angel I just want to say...
Have a peaceful Sunday in heaven today.
And remember it's not just on a Sunday I love and miss you..
I love and miss you every day of the week too.
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SENDING YOU SUNDAY BLESSINGS, MAY YOU HAVE A
PEACEFUL DAY, LOVE JUDE. X X
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copyright ~ Jackie Thomas 14/06/09.
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For you, dear Alex, and your loving mum xxx
In Memory of You
I find an old photograph
and see your smile.
As I feel your presence anew,
I am filled with warmth
and my heart remembers love.
I remember who you used to be
the laughter we shared
and wonder what you have become.
Where are you now,
Where did you go,
When the body is left behind
and the spirit is released to fly?
Perhaps you are the morning bird
singing joyfully at sunrise,
or the butterfly that dances
so carelessly on the breeze
or the rainbow of colors
that brightens a stormy sky
or the fingers of afternoon mist
delicately reaching over the mountains
or the final few rays of the setting sun
lighting up the skies
edging the clouds with a magical glow.
I miss your being
but I feel your presence,
In whatever form you choose to take,
however you now choose to be.
Your spirit has become for me
a guardian angel on high
guiding, advising, and watching over me.
I remember you.
You are with me
and I am not afraid.
Kirsti A. Dyer, MD, MS
On Angel Wings
On angel wings you do fly
On angel wings into the sky
On angel wings i do cry
Because those angel wings took you away
On angel wings the heralds sing
Is there no such lovely thing?
On angel wings you fly away.
I will see these angel wings again someday
When i am old and my time has come
On angel wings I will fly
Until I'm holding you once again
Smiling on angel wings.
Troy Nichols
![](http://www.gonetoosoon.org/file/gift__91x91/dd88883973c116ba9cbf7c2ec22e85af/sbutterfly---blue.jpg ""There are special people in our lives who never leave us -- even after they are gone."
Very special on earth - very special in Heaven.
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers always, dear Alex xxx")
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